A Long Way From Home is a podcast dedicated to exploring how LGBTQ people experience exile and displacement. This exploration will take in the personal, political, and spiritual dimensions of homelessness. While the podcast is centered on the experiences of young people who experience family rejection and homelessness, it also examines intersecting modes of how we experience exile and displacement in the broader queer community and the ways we achieve healing, empowerment, and community.

The podcast will be hosted by Carl Siciliano, who founded the Ali Forney Center and helped build it up to become the largest organization in the world dedicated to housing homeless LGBTQ youth. In the various episodes, Carl will be joined by guests including persons who have experienced homelessness, activists fighting in the realms of homeless, transgender, queer and racial justice work, journalists, artists, and spiritual leaders.

A Long Way From Home is produced by the Ali Forney Center.


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Emanuel Xavier



Emanuel Xavier is an American Latinx poet, spoken word artist, author, editor, former homeless youth, and LGBTQ activist born and raised in New York City, in the Bushwick area of Brooklyn. Of Puerto Rican and Ecuadorian ancestry, he emerged from the ball culture scene and Nuyorican spoken word movement to become a successful writer and advocate for gay youth programs and Latinx literature. Once an underage hustler and club kid drug dealer, and later a hate crime survivor, he has performed, conducted spoken word poetry workshops, and produced benefits and events for LGBTQ youth organizations around the United States.


In this week's A Long Way From Home podcast, join Emanuel Xavier, an American Latinx poet, author, editor, former homeless youth, and LGBTQ activist, in a conversation about how LGBTQ people experience exile and displacement. Listen in as Emanuel discusses surviving homelessness on the Christopher Street piers in the 1980's while exploring ways of #FindingHome with AFC's Founder, Carl Siciliano.


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There are Gods among us in these ghettos
so black so brown, so fierce, so beautiful,
so bright
Look up towards the heavens and pray
then look at yourself in the mirror and say
'Stars are not only found in the sky
but in ourselves'

from Legendary by Emanuel Xavier


If Jesus were gay,
and still loved by God and Mary
because he was their child after all
hailed by angels and feared by demons,
would you still long to be healed by him?
take him into your home and comfort him?
heal his wounds and break bread with him?

from If Jesus Were Gay by Emanuel Xavier

Rebel Satori Press will be publishing “Emanuel Xavier Selected Poems” in April 2021. 



  • Christ Like, Rebel Satori Press, 2009 (original 1999 out-of-print edition was a Lambda Literary Award finalist)
  • If Jesus Were Gay & other poems, Rebel Satori Press, 2010
  • Pier Queen, Rebel Satori Press, 2012 (official publication of a self-published chapbook from 1997)
  • Americano- Growing Up Gay and Latino in the USA, Rebel Satori Press, 2012 (republished from the original 2002 out-of-print edition)
  • Nefarious, Rebel Satori Press, 2013 (International Latino Book Award- Second Place- Best Poetry Book – One Author – Bilingual)
  • Radiance, Rebel Satori Press, 2016


Edited Collections

  • Mariposas: A Modern Anthology of Queer Latino Poetry, Floricanto Press, 2008, edited by Emanuel Xavier
  • Bullets & Butterflies: queer spoken word poetry, suspect thoughts press, 2005, edited by Emanuel Xavier (Lambda Literary Award finalist)
  • Me No Habla With Acento, El Museo del Barrio & Rebel Satori Press, 2011, edited by Emanuel Xavier (International Latino Book Award- Second Place- Best Poetry Book – English)

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Junior Labeija, Emanuel Xavier, and Carl Siciliano at the Rally for Homeless LGBT Youth in June 2014.



A Long Way From Home theme is sung by David Raleigh

Instrumentation by Rami Ramirez